Just because I do something in front of you doesn’t mean I want everyone to hear about it. I don’t usually mix too much with people because I know how messy that can all get. Usually when I do let people be around me it’s because there’s something about them I like and trust. Once I start to hear too many stories about myself coming back from that source I will quickly remind that source that they barely know me and cut that source off to avoid future stories. If you follow me on twitter you’re somewhat clued in on this post if you’re not here’s the short version.
Sometimes people talk about me a lot when I’m not around and at a point it gets disrespectful. I like to be free and open and me all the time but if people aren’t around for it they missed it. That’s it. You don’t have to keep telling people that weren’t there the story over and over and I know it’s over and over because it keeps getting back to me. So after a while I’ll just check you publicly. You can either realize you were doing it and cut the shit out or I can completely stop talking to you. I mean yeah I may have thought we could be friends and been a little too open around you, you either keep it under your hat and move on or you enjoy telling the story over and over and lose me as a friend. I in turn do the same for my friends. I see ALL of my friends in the WORST conditions, drunk, hungover, without make up, high, sad, whatever. I don’t see a need to share these things with people that weren’t around those moments are between us. So if you’re a person that doesn’t respect that about ME, I’m cool, we don’t NEED to be friends. I don’t care if you’re a gossip and you talk about EVERYONE you know if they like it and don’t mind it I’m cool with that too but ME is where I draw the line.
Understand none of this is because of being ashamed of what I do or say but because when people repeat most things that happen with me they are taken completely out of context. I live moment to moment and what I feel right now may not be what I feel five minutes from now so if someone wasn’t around for something there’s no way to fill them in. The best thing to do with me is if you’re lucky enough hang out with me enjoy it, take it in and then forget it