The Break Up
Alright so I know I probably shouldn’t even blog about this stuff but I feel like since I make my facebook, Twitter and everything else SO OPEN I almost have to explain when I introduce you guys to someone and then they’re suddenly gone. So here goes. Just over a year ago I met someone with the intention of having a one night stand. It turned into something a bit longer and more drawn out but in a lot of ways that’s where it should’ve stayed. I think we both thought there might be something there and in the beginning there definitely was. Too much happened too soon (part our fault, part just life) and we ended up in kind of a miserable spot. We’d have good times for sure but there was plenty of making each other miserable. When it comes down to it I think we both had tried really hard but we just turned out to not be right for each other. I posted that I was “single again” on Twitter and people started sending me messages and @ replies expressing concern/sympathy. I really do appreciate all of it but it’s really not necessary. The weird thing about me is I can seem or, in some cases, actually really be into somebody and then it just shuts off. I sometimes get caught up in the moment and feel like I really want something, and a part of me sincerely does, but once I realize it’s not going to work for my life I HAVE TO cut it. It really doesn’t hurt, it’s a lot more matter of fact so it makes it that way. I don’t have a lot of energy to put into anything outside of my career so if at the end of any amount of time, especially a year, I notice it’s not where I need it to be I have no choice but to move on. I have nothing bad to say about the person I was dating. He’s a great guy with a family I genuinely liked, and still do like, but just not the right guy/family for me. I don’t mind saying any of this because I know he would agree. We tried it, it didn’t work, we move on. We didn’t have a lengthy conversation about it because I think by that time we had both had as many lengthy conversations as we could handle. I know some people were especially surprised because we both made a big deal about celebrating a year on facebook. The truth is, we pretty well limped into our anniversary date together, having spent the night before apart even though we were in the same city. I don’t regret it in any way because I learn from everything I go through but just because you don’t regret something doesn’t mean you want to try to move forward with it.
Then today I posted on Twitter that I would be married within a year and at some point I’ll explain fully but don’t worry. That Tweet does not at all mean I’m trying to find someone to marry. The truth on that situation is, if you’re a person like me you can’t fully move on if you already PROMISED someone that you would come back for them. I sometimes try to make myself forget about that promise because it’s gonna be pretty hard to make that happen. Not jump through hoops type stuff. More the kind of stuff you HAVE TO do if you leave someone that was proving to you that they were ALL ABOUT YOU. It was absolutely necessary and that person knows that but I didn’t handle everything back then in the best way I possibly could’ve so I have some work to do. Either way life is great, I appreciate all the messages, I’m single for now and it’s time for me to go to sleep.
The most important thing in all of this is I remembered to blog