Not Drinking Until January 28th
The other night I posted on Twitter that I wouldn’t be drinking until January 28th. People of course reacted and I expected that. The thing that gets me the most with when you take breaks from party life is that people assume that you must have a problem or something bad must’ve happened. The truth for me is sometimes I just need to take breaks from everything to really focus on making life better. I know I’ve mentioned it before but I think about my future and the future of my family a lot. I’m not getting any younger and neither are any of them. My parents are in good health but if anything would ever happen to either of them I wouldn’t want taking care of them to be any sort of issue. I would want to, by that time, have done well enough that I can just take care of them and not sweat anything on the financial end. Even if nothing like that were to happen anytime soon, in less grim and more ideal circumstances, I’d like to be able to fully take care of them when my Dad decides to retire, even though I know he’ll probably wanna work until the day he dies. I’d like to be able to send them on vacations and maybe buy them a new house, if my Mom would agree to live anywhere but where she lives now. My point is, I have stubborn and demanding parents and in order to make them happy however they’re going to allow me to make them happy I need to be successful. And what about me? You think I don’t want a bunch of shit??? You think I wouldn’t like a new car? And we all know how I love shoes and what about when I get married? What about when I want a kid? You think that greedy little motherfucker isn’t gonna want an iPod and an iPad and whatever the fuck else they come up with between now and then? Oh yeah, and there’s my nephews and nieces, I KNOW they’re gonna need some shit. And then there’s my sisters, one of them I don’t worry about, she’s made a decent life for herself and I’m really proud of her. But there’s the other one and she makes bad decisions so believe me I’m gonna have to kick that bitch down a couple dollars and we don’t even always get along!!! Then there’s my other sister in Texas, she’s done well for herself so that should be kinda’ low maintenance but I’m gonna have to get her some shit just because she’s my sister. Then there’s my future “wife”, don’t even get me started on that one!!!
Anyway, I realize I may have gotten a little carried away there but I was trying to paint a picture. There are all of those things and then there’s the fact that God blesses me daily and the universe seems to take care of me. A lot of good things are happening everyday so I have to stay alert to make sure I’m not missing anything or falling short on my end. I didn’t move to LA to not make it. So every once in a while I have to NOT PARTY. Maybe you can do EVERYTHING and party too, congrats on that. In that way I’m not always the best multitasker so I’ll put you and what you would do out of my head and do what’s right for me.
Thanks for reading and most important thing to remember from all of this is right now I’m surrounded by great people who are willing to teach me, nurture me, mentor me, vouch for me, cheer for me and in some cases DO for me so I can’t be fucking things up by not being focused and maximizing every opportunity that is being given to me now and headed my way because I love to drink and act up. I’ll take a couple months off (officially starting July 28)* and be as clear headed as I possibly can be, work on my body, continue to grow hair, work on my act, have my eyebrows done on the regular, figure more shit out and at the end of it all I should really have some stuff to celebrate.